So…I haven’t been really functioning on all cylinders for quite some time.
I don’t know that that needs explaining, but it’s been my reality. A new relationship – that went from instant connection to super serious in record time, parenting (plus the bonus kids that I am really enjoying), work (major stress, but moments of real and true sense of accomplishment and achievement), and now we are adding a new pet.
Yep, a new pet. Why? I have been wanting another dog for a while. I lucked into the fantastic puppers that now gets serious anxiety when I am not around. Her previous mama is still around, and she takes trips to spend time over there and visit with all of her dog friends. My dog needs extra care and a more relaxed (hahahaha!) environment, so her mama so kindly let me be her new mama. She wasn’t ready to give up this fantastic dog, but she said she knew I would be a perfect fit (plus, I have known the prior dog mama for over 25 years now). And, while I still have my cat that is completely uninterested in anyone else unless they are paying appropriate homage to his majesty, we still were looking for another pup to add to our brood.
The Man is settled in, the kids are part of the family now, so this is just…the next step. Although, I’ll interject in the midst of my own rambling to say that by “next step” I really mean the next step before the next step, because there is always a “next step.” We happened on this pup (adopted from a fantastic local rescue, because yay!). Am I doing things out of order? What should I be doing? I don’t have the answers to everything, but I do have the answer to this.
Life is meant to be lived. We don’t make “perfect” choices or do things according to a timeline that is set in stone. We are floundering to find ourselves, and meaning, and purpose. It took me 35 years to embrace the beauty of me. I won’t lose that again. I will make the best choices that I can in the moment. That is all that I can do. What if something doesn’t work? Answer: Make a change. It’s such a simple solution that is much harder to implement. My life is, well, mine. Not yours or my parents or some strange on the internet. Mine.
Take ownership. Own your failings and shortcomings. Identify areas of improvement. Just keep moving. Be a Dory. I am me. No more, no less. And guess what? I like me. I’m pretty awesome. Want another secret? You’re pretty awesome, too. You should like you. The more you like yourself, the more you attract others that like you as well.
Be real. Be you. And don’t be afraid to reach out to others and ask for help, or a shoulder to cry on, or a listening ear. I’m here. I’m here for me, and I’m here for anyone else that needs a person. Feeling like life is falling apart is normal. Really. It’s normal. Be normal. Be you. Be happy.
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